21 Years After & Adult Dating

"Variety" is the spice of life" I remember him saying to me that hot summer afternoon. He made no secret that he thought I was having an affair, in fact he told me he understood how I felt because he had been there many times in the 30 years he was married to my mother. "It's not what you think dad" I said "we're just friends. I felt the heat rise in my face and hoped he didn't notice, hoped it wouldn't give me away. "well I can see more and so can everyone else, you have children to think about." It didn't matter to him that my marriage was in shambles just that the light of his life "my daughter" should have her family intact. "There are ways to be discreet and you need to learn that, you can be unfaithful and never be found out" he said. "Dad really, it's not what you think, let's please leave it at that ok.

He had one too many that night I knew it, as I paced, fuming that my huband wasn't home and I was pretty sure I knew who he was with and what they were doing. This was the thing that came between us from the start I knew he would never be mine and after a few years I learned to accept it, or adapt, and find new interests, but none that occupied me on a regular basis, yet...

Journal Entry January 31, 2009

Why are people unfaithful and How do they not get caught? For the hell of it I googled it tonight. Adult dating, swingers, casual encounters, sex search and discreet sex just to name a few is what came up in the search results!!! It would seem that the swinger lifestyle is rapidly evolving into commonplace in this era. Adult dating is used as a means to "Spice" up ones relationship. I guess that after many years of making it with one person your mind begins to run out of fantasies, don't bother reading a good book, nothing beats the real thing.

Adult dating sites let you browse millions and I do mean millions of profiles of people who are just looking to have sex with no string attached, swingers, group sex whatevers' your fancy. Adult Friend Finder, Passion.com, and Fling.com to name a few all offer a free memberships. You are able to discreetly contact "Local" members, chat with them even view them on webcam if you want. I like that you can view a persons profile and picture before you actually contact them and I did email one person tonight, I was nervous but at the same time I felt alive and gitty inside wondering what he will think of me, and a bit guilty that my faithful second husband waits for me in bed. I guess old habits die hard and new ones will form easily. I found this guy on a really cute themed website called NaughtyFuXXX.com, I think I am going to enjoy Adult Dating and spicing up my life with "discreet" casual encounters.

To Be Continued..........

My name is Jen after years of caring for my children I am now beginning to live my own life. I recently started a website and have been enjoying the learning process and look forward to making something of it.